Saturday, February 2, 2013
…I would have last night.
I SERIOUSLY HATE HATE HATE the doctor who is on this week.
I usually am not so vehement in my emotions, but this doctor is very mean. I was yelled at again last night and all because I was TRYING to get an order followed and I’m just so damn sick and tired of it.
I really mean it. If I could have just walked out at that point, I would have. It would have felt amazing.
Instead I swore and cried…my usual.
And had an awful rest of the night. I STILL feel down and worthless. I just hate that that doctor makes me feel so inferior and incompetent when I KNOW that I am a good nurse.
Just when I thought that I was having a good stretch.
I guess I need to grow a set and confront this doctor but he just makes me so uncomfortable, I haven’t been able to do it. So instead I just put up with it and start hating myself.
Ugh. If it wasn’t a weekend, I would call out tonight.
I guess it is time to really start looking for a different position. My 6 month suspension is up this month, I’ll have to look when and I’ll have to see what other department is hiring (probably the only thing I could go to now is either IMC or the ER).
NO ONE deserves to be treated how I was last night, least of all the person who is trying to take care of the patients…
Only one more day on…12 more hours of my life. Believe me, I will avoid calling that doctor at all costs and that is NOT the attitude you want your nurse to have.
Okay, I have to snap out of this…
Maybe tonight will be better…it couldn’t be much worse.
Okay, Kaye? 