Last day of the month!

Monday, April 30th, 2012

I really cannot believe that today is the last day of this month.

I’m sad, but also glad.

Sad that I felt like I took a step back this month.  With losing weight, with maintaining focus with my studying, with accomplishing my goals.

But so glad that I can start fresh with a new month.

Tomorrow is a brand new day!!!

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Now three…

Sunday, April 29th, 2012

Another SLOW night at work.  Only three patients but I still had just my one.

Did lots of reading and studying.

Was SO glad to get home.

Standard night of dinner, computer time, TV time and then bed!

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Only two.

Saturday, April 28, 2012

A slow night in ICU.  Only two patients, and only one of them ICU and even she was not critical.

I was able to do a little studying (read two articles…one on Obstructive Sleep Apnea and another on Alcohol Withdrawal in Hospitalized Patients…also did a notecard on Guillan-Barre Syndrome…I’m focusing on neuro right now!)

Sleepy and time for bed now…it’s cold out there…down to 37 overnight.

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Productive Friday and New Cleaning Plan!

Friday, April 27, 2012

It does feel nice when you can feel like you are accomplished on a half day!

Marked off on the “to do” list…

Balanced checkbook and paid bills

Paid initial deposit on new car insurance

Picked up Izzy’s med at the vet

Picked up more drinks at the packie!

Cleaned both bathrooms

Did the dishes

Brushed Izzy and swept/swiffered the floors and dusted afterwards

Filled the car with gas

Now on to the fun stuff…

Will finish this blog and then read and watch this week’s episode of Survivor

Maybe a little nap before work (if I’m lucky!)

Kimm and I were talking today and think we are going to try a new way of tackling the “bigger” cleaning projects (for example, vacuuming all the carpet, doing the bed sheets, cleaning the bathrooms, etc) and we’re going to try for an every other Saturday (the ones I have off) cleaning for two hours and then rewarding ourselves with an iced coffee from McDonald’s.  Sounds like it might work.  I’m keeping my fingers crossed as this will help a lot with keeping up with the housework and some of those chores that we keep putting off!

I hope everyone has a great weekend.  It’s windy out there!  But also sunny, which is great.

I’m on for two nights and then off for three and can’t wait!!

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New Sneakers…finally.

Thursday, April 26, 2012

After shopping today I came home with not one, not two, but THREE new pairs of sneakers.

We headed up to Target for our monthly trip and stopped at Famous Footwear first…I needed to return a pair of sneakers I had bought before.  After I got them home I realized they were a little tight.  I think I was  just really wanting a new pair of shoes and when you want something really bad and there are not a lot of options, well you tell yourself that things feel better than they actually do!

So back they went and I looked again.  I happened to find two pair I liked at Famous Footwear so that was a pleasant surprise.  Kimm was looking too and didn’t find anything.

Then we hopped on over to Kohl’s to check them out too…I just so happened to find another pair!  Really surprised with that find!  Unfortunately, none for Kimm.

I’m going to try rotating the shoes at work to see if I can make them last longer.  However, the older I get, the more I’m less willing to skimp on good shoes.  Ahh, don’t I sound wise?  🙂  Don’t let me fool you… I just have sore feet!

I tried a no-rise pizza dough recipe for dinner tonight…with high hopes…MAJOR FAIL.  I didn’t like it at all.  The dough was way too dense and doughy.  Just tasted bland and flour-like.  We ate it, but I didn’t enjoy it.  I’ll have to keep searching for a good, easy recipe.

On the agenda is a movie…just not sure what one yet!

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Restaurant Impossible!

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

First night off was good.

Spent time organizing photos on my computer and Shutterfly and then ended the night with a few episodes of Restaurant Impossible.  Really love that show.  Chef Robert Irvine really does miracles with these floundering restaurants.  I’m always amazed that he fixes the food, the decor, and usually the psyche of the restaurant owners and families.  He is a tough love kind of guy that just says it like it is.  Sometimes that really is the best way to get through to people.  I always feels so inspired after watching that show and just want to own my own restaurant!

 

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The little things…

Tuesday, April 24th, 2012

Sleeping in!

Reading blogs while eating breakfast.

Giving your dog the knife to lick.

Hints of sun peeking out from the clouds.

The breeze blowing in from a rolled down window in a car.

Fresh produce!

Grilled cheese sandwiches.

Reading a good book.

Relaxing…

All of these are the little things that make my days better 🙂

Hope everyone is having a wonderful day!!

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Gossip Girl Marathon

Monday, April 23rd, 2012

I was very happy to be canceled for 4 hours of my shift yesterday 🙂  It was not the full 12 hours as another nurse called out overnight, but oh it was a nice surprise!  When I went in, I was floated to the ER.  Initially kind of disappointed as I just wanted to be in my unit, but then when I got there and everyone was so happy to see me it was a nice feeling.  Thankfully the night was fairly slow and I did my 8 hours and was home before I knew it.  I love it when it goes like that.

Since I only had one night off, I knew we would be taking it easy.

We watched a total of four episodes of Gossip Girl, finishing off Season Four!  I thought there was a little bit of a cliffhanger at the end, but Kimm didn’t think it was as exciting as last season.  Regardless, I’m anxious to see Season Five…which I don’t think will be released until sometime in August!

 

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Back on my game

Sunday, April 22, 2012

I wish I knew why I had these horrible mood swings!

I can only guess…hormonal?

Anyways, I woke up today, refreshed.

I think one thing that made me feel a lot better was just letting my body rest.

I did not get up until 10:20 am and that felt right.  I didn’t just get up because Kimm was getting up or because I felt like I didn’t want to waste my day.  I just got up when it felt like it was time to get up and I felt rested.

So even though it was a lot later than I normally sleep, I’m glad I listened to my body.

I’m beginning to think that is part of my “being happy” solution.

A quick breakfast of coffee with banana bread spread with peanut butter and then I decided to watch a “Little House” episode while organizing my bag for work.   I really don’t know how that gets so disorganized!  But I feel lots better knowing only what I need is in there.  And I think I needed to watch that “Little House” episode…it sure had a message for me this morning…it was the one where Laura had a crush on Johnny and she kept trying to think of things to do to make him like her.  Well, of course that didn’t work and Ma had the sage advice…we all are our own true selves and when we try to change to make others like us then it is kind of like a little lie…we should just be the best person, our own true self, and people will like us for that…or they may not…but at least we will still like ourselves.

Oh “Little House” wisdom…I wonder what other lessons I will learn from Season One 🙂

Can you tell I’m in a better mood?

Lunch was leftovers…homemade mac and cheese with apple crisp for dessert.  While watching a Gossip Girl…no “Little House” but definitely some entertainment.

Now I’m going to read, then shower for work and then prepare dinner…tonight on the menu is Mushroom Veggie burgers topped with American cheese and grilled mushrooms and onions…on the side a baked potato and mixed veggies.  Sounds good!

I hope everyone has a wonderful end to the weekend.

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What I’m Giving Myself…

Saturday, April 21, 2012

So after feeling so down yesterday, I read this post, Weekend Quote: Give Yourself Something, by one of my favorite bloggers, Roni.  And when I read it I was like, “yeah…exactly.”  I swear this woman knows what I’m thinking some days.  The thing I love the best about her is that she is REAL and that she has the ability to motivate me.

I was thinking about this post tonight just before I wrote this blog.

Honestly, I slept like shit last night…just kept thinking about life and how unfair it is sometimes and of course that got me nowhere, especially in regards to sleeping.

So I woke up tired.

And still a bit depressed.

And to tell you the truth, instead of fighting against it, I kind of wallowed in it.

I DO feel like I accomplished stuff today, but my heart just was not in it.

So i was halfway there, but just not all the way.  I think it was because I just kept thinking, no one cares that my life is not what I want.

But then I re-read Roni’s post again tonight and I realized that that may be how life is.  No one may notice what I do or don’t do or how I feel.

So I have to recognize that myself.  I have to give to myself what others may not be able to.

So even though I still feel a bit down tonight, I do realize that I am a good person.

I give myself credit for doing the daily things that need to get done but are not necessarily fun.

I give myself a pat on the back for little things I do that make my home a bit nicer.

I give myself forgiveness, even when I just want to hate my lack of willpower.

I give myself a smile when I learn something new, even if it is only for my own benefit and no one else will ever know.

“What will mess you up most in life is the picture in your head of how it is supposed to be.”

Maybe it is because I am getting older, but I often think about that “picture in my head.”

I think that I’m going to have to start changing what that picture looks like so I can actually be happy.

I need to find out WHAT makes me happy.

And if what makes me happy is what no one else can give me, then I will have to LEARN how to give it to myself!

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