One Year Anniversary

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

One year ago from today, I was full of nerves, knowing that I was starting my first nursing job the very next day.  I had only graduated in May, hadn’t even passed my boards yet, and wasn’t even completely sure that I liked nursing based on just my clinical experience.  I wasn’t sure I would ever really feel comfortable being a nurse.  I was anxious about meeting my work colleagues, and insecure about learning new policies and procedures.  I had worked at my last job for almost 10 years!  And now I had to learn all over again…

But now, here it is, one year later, and time seems, as usual, to have flown by.  I don’t feel so nervous every day when I go into work because I have a year of experience under my belt and I know that no matter what the situation at work, there is ALWAYS someone else that I can ask for advice.  I work with WONDERFUL colleagues (in fact, if not for them, the job wouldn’t be that great).  I love the feeling of really being able to help patients in their time of need, but often I still feel frustrated by lack of time and feeling rushed all the time.  I’m not sure if I would have chosen this career if I knew everything that it involved, yet I think that’s how most people feel about their work.

We’ll see how this next year goes.  I’m starting school this fall, so I’ll have one more thing on my plate.  Hopefully it will help me to become a better nurse as I’m learning about being a nurse practitioner.  If anything, I will always still have the perspective of the floor nurse, which I think is essential NOT to lose sight of.

I’ll be interested to know what I think of nursing one year from now.  Let the next year commence!

Published in: on July 15, 2008 at 5:15 pm  Comments (1)  

The day of…

March 21, 2008

Today is Friday and that means the start of my weekend on for work (I work at a small community hospital where nurses work every other weekend). So essentially that means that I only have half a day off since I leave the house at 6:20 pm in order to arrive at work by 6:30 pm (yes, I am extremely thankful for a VERY short commute). Thus, today is the day of…1) psyching myself up for working three days in a row, 2) completing all things that I still wanted to do on my days off, 3) trying to get a quick nap in, 4) repeating to myself that yes, I really am a nurse, and 5) generally feeling blah and wishing that it was my weekend off!

You’ll notice that I’m blogging (yikes, look at me using these fancy computer terms) quite early. Yes, of course, the one day that I REALLY wanted and needed to sleep in late, I was unable to. After Madeline woke me up to be fed at 4:30 am (she does this by constantly scratching on the bedroom door–and of course I, not “K,” am the only one who hears this noise and is annoyed by it), I was unable to get back to sleep. I’m still getting over a cold and one of my nostrils was completely blocked up, which I hate! So I use the magical Vick’s nasal spray and within two minutes, I can breath again! (quick note–do not use this magical spray for more than three days in a row, no matter how wonderful you think it is–it can cause what’s caused “rebound constriction”–causing you to feel even more stuffed up and then you have to use more of it and eventually you are addicted and will need to be weaned off–this has happened to “K” in the past and she needed to use inhaled steroids to break the habit–doctor prescribed of course!). But even though I can breath, I can’t sleep. All I can hear is the wind howling (and I truly mean howling) outside. Starting last night the wind was incredibly intense. Add to that the gently snoring of my sweetie, “K,” and my thoughts about it being my last day off…well, I couldn’t sleep. So I got up at 6:30 AM!!! That is unheard of for me. Usually I sleep in till at least 10:30 am.

So I made it to the couch, snuggled under my down comforter, and read for about two hours. I also got a good peak at the sun rising–absolutely beautiful. Since I live on the fourth floor of an apartment building I have the perfect view of the mountains in the distance, with the tree peaks at my level–to see the sky a brilliant red that fades to pink is completely breathtaking.

Plans for the day include: enjoying coffee once my sweetie awakens, going grocery shopping, and taking a nap. Not too ambitious so I think I should be able to complete everything. This way, if I actually do more than that, I’ll feel proud of myself!

I have to say it is kind of peaceful to get up early and have time for yourself. The birds are singing outside (crazy birds, don’t they know it’s mighty cold out there!), and the sun is shining. The day feels full of possibility. I guess that’s the best part of any day, is knowing that it can be filled with anything–work, play, happiness, sadness.

Okay, that’s enough philosophizing for me this morning. I believe I might try to get TWO naps in today, and begin one right now!

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