I Am Beautiful

Thursday, August 5, 2010

One of the healthy living blogs I read faithfully is Healthy Tipping Point.  Caitlin, the author of this blog, created a movement called Operation Beautiful.  In a nutshell, it’s all about recognizing the beauty in everyone, and she advocates spreading the love by leaving post it notes reminding people that “you are beautiful” wherever you go.

I believe this message is very powerful.

Honestly, I can’t remember the last time I felt beautiful.

And this is very sad.

From the time I was very young, I always judged myself by my weight and how I looked.  I was never content–I wanted to be thinner, have hair that “did something,” and wished I had talents I saw in others.

Well, here I am, in my late 30s (yikes!) and I’m still not happy.

I’m lighter than my heaviest weight, I’m heavier than my lightest weight.  And at each of those stops, I’ve always felt the same–NOT GOOD ENOUGH.

Well, enough is enough.

I refuse to live the rest of my life waiting for that moment when I feel all is right.  I don’t think I’m ever going to be that image I see in my head.  That image is not even realistic.

Starting today I’m going to start liking myself just because I’m me.

And I’m going to start loving my body.  It’s the only one I got.

I will love my stick straight hair that always falls in my face.

I will love my smile.

I will love my belly.

I will love my big feet!

I want to embrace each day for what it is and not be thinking all the time…”oh my god, if I eat that, I’ll get so much fatter.”  I want to have some ice cream if I crave it.  I want to be happy, even if I’m not as thin as I would like to be.

So I thank Caitlin for reminding me that I need to change the way I see, not the way I look 🙂

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